Feeling on Stage

I can’t irrational if I have lost someone who very I love. I am out for hide all this from my people’s closest, I try to behave likely - processing not happened with me. I feel I have broken heart…………. Yes Because her. In fact, if I have the problem I never written him like this because during the time the problems come and go like wind elapse and I can always overcome his own. But this problem very different and I can’t pass all this. I could probably cheat everybody and spell out members if mes [is] not at all love him. But I can’t lie myself alone and fight against my own liver. What is going on with me? During the time I can always pass his own. But why all these times so different? I can’t awaken from isn't it this me.